Just Wondering

I hear conversations a lot that make me wonder if people really ever think about what they are saying, the impact their words may have on others, and what in life is important to them.

I’m not one to bite my tongue and I feel people should openly share views. However sometimes maybe we should think first. I think and I hope that I am pretty good at weighing these times out. I’ve always tried to put myself in others shoes. Understand who people are and be aware of who’s presence I’m in. I’m sure I have stuck my foot in my mouth a few times over my years. I can’t know everyone’s situation. Which brings me to why I was thinking about a recent conversation I was witness to. I know they didn’t mean any harm. Most of them don’t even know I have MS. The ones that do I’m sure have no real understanding of what living with MS is. The multitude of symptoms.  So the conversation didn’t upset me just made me wonder if people think about things they say or who’s company they might be in. What struggles someone might be having. What in life is meaningful to others. Maybe they think these things can never happen to them.

This is the jest of the conversation. I don’t remember how it came up but they were discussing the what if’s, if something were to happen to them. What they just couldn’t live with. What they would rather be dead than live with. Ok understandable right! We all have our limits. It was the WHAT that got me. I sat there listening to what seemed like minor things to live with as far as I am concerned. Being blind, not being able to talk or hear, walk, or feed yourself. Keep in mind they were talking about having one or the other of these struggles. Not all of them at the same time. Definitely not sufficient enough to give up on life. I just sat there and kept listening. Never said anything. At one point I thought dang I guess I should of given up a long time ago! Lol. I have most of what they are talking about and what I don’t it’s safe to say it’s in my foreseeable future. I thought to myself how sad is that to feel like your life would be over.

All of the things mentioned in the conversation are real struggles for anyone. I get that but I would hope that for most the important things in life would be worth it. At least something to make them try to fight.


It could be that I’m looking at this all wrong. Maybe not everyone is cut out to deal with these kinds of things and that’s ok. Who knows better than themselves what they can handle.  Maybe I should be looking at it as they know this about themselves and can admit it.

For me life is about so much more than what happens to us. Spending time with family and friends. Loving our pets. Enjoying nature. Inspiring others. I can’t fathom the idea of giving up because life wasn’t fair. Just because I may not be able to enjoy things in the way that I was used to.

I might be in pain, I may not be able to talk. I might wobble when I walk. Fall flat on my face even. I will get back up. ( Long enough to get to a chair)One things is for sure I will never give up!

6 thoughts on “Just Wondering

  1. I’m having a bad MS day. My legs are the sorest they have been in months. I feel wobbly and i’m not in the best mood as a result. Then i read this post. There is a huge power in the positive word and your last two paragraphs reminded me that i need to focus on the positives. So what if the duvet felt too heavy to lift this morning. I can still lift it. Thank you.

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  2. One of the reasons I never told one of my friends I have MS is that according to her views I should probably be considering suicide by now. I’m not sure if people know what they’re talking about when they talk like that. If they do, then they’re entitled to their opinion. If they don’t maybe they should talk less and listen more…

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