I don’t usually visit my social sites on the weekend. Only occasionally if I’m home by myself and I have nothing else to do. Saturday happened to be one of those days. The first post I saw was one from a friend I met through a MS group that we both belong to. A fellow MSer had lost her life. Although I didn’t know this young lady ( only 35 yrs old ) it still hits home. I can only imagine what her family must be going through and my thoughts and prayers are with them.
I won’t go into any of the details as to what led to this loss of life. I read several posts and details varied so I don’t know all the facts. All I’m certain of is that it is a tragic loss of life way too early.
Unfortunately I have seen posts like this before. It always saddens me but for some reason this post got to me more than usual. I am a positive person and I spend a great deal of time laughing at myself but there are times these kinds of things are in the back of my mind.
Simple every day things can mean the loss of life for someone living with MS or other chronic illnesses. Things that most people do every day without ever thinking twice about. Working in the yard. Going for a walk. Taking a shower. Eating. Just everyday things we all enjoy.
Living with a disease like MS takes that carefree way of life away. We are forced to always be mindful of what situation we are in and what our bodies are telling us. It takes away the ability to just go for a walk when it pleases you. You’re robbed of your independence and faced with the fact that you can no longer do certain things unless someone is around. The what ifs are now a normal every day thought.
This news hit me Saturday because it was a simple thing. An everyday activity for most that shouldn’t have resulted in the loss of life. Over the last year the what ifs have become a part of my every day.
I would love to go for a walk on a whim. I love walking. I love seeing the world around me.
What if…..I loose my balance. What if…..I fall. What if…..I can’t get myself up.
I would love to eat without fear.
What if…..I choke. What if…..no one else is home.
I won’t let these what ifs get me down and I won’t stop living but this unfortunate news does serve as a reminder of how serious and real this disease is.